Waking up to a gorgeous day in sunny California is always the greatest alarm clock I have. But have we completely jumped right over spring and into summer?? I just felt like summer was yesterday; although, fall and winter did seem rather long ((or was it just me?)) This weather makes me thirsty for a couple of activities- cruising around and walking outside in a place with heavy foot traffic- Santa Monica perhaps? Or maybe my own front yard- Old Town Pasadena? I also wanna go boating- on the lake with a nice cold beer and getting my tan on. But whatever I decide to do...yaknow it'll be fun!
Now to the season we barely get the pleasure of acclimating ourselves to- Spring. That season is most well known for "cleaning out your closet" so to speak, being renewed and refreshed. It parallels the New Year in a way and it's funny that I'm already thinking of Spring and we haven't been into the new year for a full month yet. Spring is a couple of months away- it may be premature, but I know my sense of "reset" may come then. I feel, for maybe a year now, I've "resetted" quite a few times. Begin something, end something, begin, end...breathe. Most were unimportant changes, small and almost forgettable. Some were life changing, completely effective and affective, and pushing me to look forward and leave the past where it stood. Sometimes I think about where I was a year ago and the frozen stills in my mind always surprise me- I feel foreign to them, like an out of body experience watching myself make ((right/wrong)) decisions, watching my actions, hearing the words that I've said but no matter what or how much I want... I can't stop myself because it's already been done. It's a little nuts when I catch myself thinking about the past in comparison to today. At the end of it, it's good for me. Because I've seen people's true colors...someone you thought you knew and gave yourself to just turns around and does something out of character...I love when that happens because it forces me to let go of the image of them that I perceived and accept who they actually are. I've tasted the bitter and the sweet- sometimes the combination of the two- and it imprints another lesson learned in my head that no textbook can ever teach you. All in all, the past is great but it is a past for a reason, so extract whatever positive you can and moooove the ef on. Something bigger is waiting :) Springtime!! So fresh and sooo clean, clean
Presently, though, I want to wish my brother a very happy 21st birthday! I am so proud of the person that he is. He's never been into drinking, always concerned about his health and body, and never gave in to peer pressure. Always grounded and true to himself. Being 21 is a milestone and I wish him strength and enough willpower to stay true to his morals and values and to face the "real world" with tact and poise. I know he will! Love you my brother :)
